I really cant describe the way i feel today. its like im sinking and theres something heavy inside my pulling me down. i feel lost...alone. i guess its cause after reading lynettes blog im seeing what a great time shes having and im stuck here and im dying slowly day by day. why? whats happening to me? Its like im suffering from depression or something? Its just freaky? I just feel so dead. where did this come from suddenly? its just weird. I guess its cause theres no one arround anymore. esthers gone to china, gagans in india. Im not that close to anyone else...makes me realize how many friends i have. My only hope of salvation is malaysia. Im just dying to get away from here. its killing me and i dont know why i feel like this. WHATS WRONG WITH ME? i just cant take this...

The only thing i ever do is play com. thats all i have. theres no one arround where i live and im forced to go to school everyday with noting to do...at least if esther was here id get out of the house but now thats impossible. even if i go out myself it wont be an fun. the fun comes from being with friends.

gtg i have a story chapter to finish by tomoro n lynns name GIF to do.

Ja ne

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